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| User: | thinperception (15489519) Perception is Reality.
Tired of rushing, racing and running. I'm falling apart. |
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| Name: | thinperception | ||
| Bio: | I'm Sara, 16, 5'9'' and my CW is 124.4 (ew). *Update July 30 Here are my other stats: LW: 124.4 HW: 155-160 GW 1: 140 DONE! GW 2: 130 DONE! GW 3: 125 DONE! GW 4: 120 GW 5: 110 I don't feel connected to my body at all. I feel like I don't control anything, not even my thoughts. I don't know who I am. I'm not looking for anything. This journal is really for me to document what's left of my life. I could live in my head, just with my thoughts. I get so wrapped up in my daydreams, sometimes I don't remember if it really happened or not.  My standards are so high, it's impossible to even see the end. I'd rather have my head filled with obsessive thoughts than 'figure out' things. I don't really want to hurt my family, but in my sick mind things are a lot more complicated. They control my life, my feelings, my schedule... I can never FEEL how I WANT to. I always have to be my charming self and I can't ever have a bad day. I've tried to communicate, but have failed miserably. I can't figure out what to say anymore. So I figure if I just waste away to nothing they'll finally realize theres something really wrong. I can control THEM. I can make them cry, worry, get angry. I can control their feelings my doing this to myself... so in my mind its justified. In the reality of things, I dont want to hurt them because they are just as lost as me. They dont know how to handle me, its not their fault. It's mine... I'm too complicated and messy. | ||
| Interests: | 10: calories, flavored water, loosing weight, painting, photography, psychology, running, tattoos, writing, yoga | ||
| Schools: | None listed | ||
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| Mutual Friends: | 46: 115lb_x, 15poundsplease, 3xxamyxx3, atunevid, blacksatinxlace, bonness, c_wallflower, deadonfive, deeptalk, divine307point1, dreaming0fthin, ellegirl1, finleylove, gissele105, hiimeka, hxartcore, inmytummynow, iwishiocould, juicylover456, justme0310, lucy_z, madhattie, model_walk, monsun1990, morag_mairhread, mz_belle05, narchizm, obi_onehundred, phyco_sweetie22, porcelainribs, pounds_suck, prtychik9, rainbowgirl4, saloha86, sheer_120, shhitsasecret07, sup_kidsss, teenage_ana, thankme_later, the_modern_age2, theamazingkate, whatineedisyou, whitetiger2202w, wilbeeo, wpsl, xtina007 | ||
| Also Friend of: | 20: ana_baby321, anachick92, averyxo, chels_paige, destinychanges, epiclc, erikaa123, europeaneed, greenkangaroo88, hipz, johmapri, lelalie, loves_to_talk, marinamcintyre, mdmarcelo, perfectioncosts, rexylove, saturarising, to_much_me, vampire_android | ||
| Member of: | 5: 24_7_posting, pa_waiting_room, pill_addicts, proanorexia, read_ed_books | ||
| Account type: | Plus Account | ||
